Raining.....

Argh.... Monday to Saturday...
It didn't rain...
As a matter of fact... it was super humid and sunny....
but.... BUT...
Come sunday....
It rained...
Sigh...
why is it that everytime i planned to play soccer it must rain???
Just when i thought finally get to run around and perspire, not needing to think much.....
It MUST RAIN..... (not that i don't like rain..... in-fact i like its alot.... but it just the wrong timing...)
Oh well....
Been a THINKING week... lots of things to think about, lots of things thats mind bogging...
and just when i thought i could have a 2 to 3 hours of break from this reality.... it must rain....
:(

How i wish... i can stop thinking for a momment (maybe a long momment would be good)...... How good would that be......
I suppressed too much feelings and thoughts....
How I wish I could drop everything... and not bother...
How I wish I am away... having a long holiday.....
How I wish I was a kid who could just shout or cry without choosing to control the emotions...
How I wish I could just say everything thats on my mind....
How I wish I could just ignite like a bomb at things or people that pissed me off....
How I wish I could say I am ready for anything that is to come.....
How I wish I could capture someones attention.....
How I wish I could understand everything......
How I wish I Life would be simpler.....
How I wish I was more humble at times ....... both in thoughts and action.....
How I wish there is someone to push me along........ someone who understands.....
and the List just go on.... Wishing....

Ok... enough of wishing for this... wishing for that.....

I have decided to read the Bible more often.... to understand it more.....
Its an almost humbling experience I had today in church.....
I suddenly felt so small and tiny.....