Negative
Dont know why.. suddenly got this very very negative feeling in me....
felt like i wanted to whack someone,throw hard punches and maybe a few kicks or locks on whoever...... (anyone wanna volunteer )
hmm..... maybe its the un-used energy or overwork or the saddist coming out or anger for no apperant reason thats in me...
Hope there wouldnt be any rough people who need to be arrested by me... if not sure will kanna jiat lart one from me (good luck to them)....especially when i am in this moody mood and i will throw in every charges i can think of against them......
Maybe i should join orchard for raids...... to get the kicks....
Anyway... i finally passed my ippt.... manage to channel the negative feeling.... and push myself to the limit......
so now everything cleared liaoz.... just waiting for my ORD date......
Fast it may seem that 1 year and 6 mths have passed in my NS life.... got to See the "real" world out there... how horrible it may seem at times.... but learnt many lesson through them all... really thank GOD for putting me in the force instead of the army...
i believe i'll be qualified to say i seen life in most form... from the super cocky rich people to the crazy people.. to people with just another sad story to tell.... or untold.....
i have seen the world.. or for that matter Singapore.... how crude one can be........ or how desprate one can be........ but amidst them all i have also seen the compassionate and caring people.... and people who think they own the world......
Just made me realised how i need to depend on HIM to change for the better to be christ like....
but whilst trying to change... i felt more anger and moody as to how hard i try but yet how far i can be......
felt like i wanted to whack someone,throw hard punches and maybe a few kicks or locks on whoever...... (anyone wanna volunteer )
hmm..... maybe its the un-used energy or overwork or the saddist coming out or anger for no apperant reason thats in me...
Hope there wouldnt be any rough people who need to be arrested by me... if not sure will kanna jiat lart one from me (good luck to them)....especially when i am in this moody mood and i will throw in every charges i can think of against them......
Maybe i should join orchard for raids...... to get the kicks....
Anyway... i finally passed my ippt.... manage to channel the negative feeling.... and push myself to the limit......
so now everything cleared liaoz.... just waiting for my ORD date......
Fast it may seem that 1 year and 6 mths have passed in my NS life.... got to See the "real" world out there... how horrible it may seem at times.... but learnt many lesson through them all... really thank GOD for putting me in the force instead of the army...
i believe i'll be qualified to say i seen life in most form... from the super cocky rich people to the crazy people.. to people with just another sad story to tell.... or untold.....
i have seen the world.. or for that matter Singapore.... how crude one can be........ or how desprate one can be........ but amidst them all i have also seen the compassionate and caring people.... and people who think they own the world......
Just made me realised how i need to depend on HIM to change for the better to be christ like....
but whilst trying to change... i felt more anger and moody as to how hard i try but yet how far i can be......
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